I never fell so deeply in love till the point where i forgot how capable i am, and how i always strives to live without a man.

At times i ask myself, why? what is it about you that make me so madly in love, so in love that i could just overlook all your little flaws, those really really ugly flaws.

But it doesn't matter anymore, it's time for me to move on since its for the best. Perhaps, i aren't the right girl for you either, most of the time i aren't the right girl for anyone. Doesn't matter, i have to start going back on track focusing on my own stuff. and for the first time of my life, after dozen years of being attached again and again. It's time for me to step up and control my own life.

I learned that, things will never have happiness if its forced. Just like how you hug a dog that doesnt want to be near you tightly, one day it will just suffocate and turn around to bite you. At the end of the day, you only end up hurting yourself. It's just a matter of time till everything is numbed and over. Be it he still loves you or not, it doesn't really matter anymore.

Live the life you love, and you will love the life you live.
Nothing is ever too late to be fix, it just a matter of you want to or not.