Although I have 5 medical leaves from work ahead, there are just so much to do. School, driving, school, chores and more chores. It's like a never ending nightmare. 

I tried so hard mum, tried so hard to make you understand but you always give me the "Y'know I don't really give a shit" when you say you do. You never fails to make me believe in you and disappoint me all over again. I've enough of that. People always say "there is nothing under the sky that's better than mothers".  Sad to say I strongly disagree with that. I tried so hard to keep that faith in you, people around me. 

I'll rely on nobody but me myself, I'll trust nobody but me myself.