Having a really emotional night.
I didn't want all this, I didnt chose to grow up through all this experience. There's so much flashbacks, I remember the times where you call me crazy, call me a freak when I had my depression breakdowns. I remember being pushed away by you because you feel that I'm too dramatic.. I remember feeling like the end of the world because I focus so much on you that I neglected my own life. Sometimes before I sleep, I'll say "oh god, please. I wanna be stronger when I wake up. I wanna be able to conquer all this fear. I want to move on. I want to laugh all day and night." People, especially you just don't understand that I don't chose to be depressed in the middle of the day. It's something out of my control, where it just a click of emotion change. It's something I can't explain with words.
But after all, I'm just a human being. After all, I'm just trying to keep myself going. Facing each day with courage, hope and faith.  I just hope that one day, I'll grow into the woman I dream become.
One day, I'll finally love myself and walk with confident.

You'll see, one day I'll be a different girl.