I met a guy, let call him G or perhaps Karma G. Why karma? well, because whatever he is doing "for" me is totally what i had done to D. It's funny how the person you are madly in love with is always not vise versa. D used to be this madly in love with his ex that didn't went well.. then i came by and he felt annoyed. Now i am annoyed by G because i simply just don't feel the same way. Who is at fault? nobody. I feel, this is just the cycle of love. How bittersweet love can be.... 

I resigned from my student care job, enrolled into college. Was given a chance to attend murdoch uni in perth but chose to stay in Singapore because i am the only child and my mum is a single mum.... Sacrifices? perhaps not, i enrolled into murdoch uni under kaplan institute instead.  Same cert, same college but yet different experience. School has been awhile now, i even became a UG driver and a tutor. 

Anyways, i just got back from Thailand, Chiang Mai recently... wasn't the best trip i would say perhaps a trip that i will never make it happen again. The thing is that, i went with my mum... she just never fail to make me feel that she is not appreciating whatever i do. Fail to notice the efforts i am putting in. I am forever the daughter, the younger generation that are expected to show respect for the elder generation (pfft, no matter how ill treated i am). Its to the point where  feel like i am mentally abused by her. 

That being said, i have stopped my antidepressant... on my own... it wasn't easy as i am having setbacks but good news is that i am visiting psychologist which keep my head clear. Its like a reset button whenever i attend the session...

time to get back on track...

ciaos

J